Sunday, May 29, 2005
Had a great chat with YQ just now. Can say, we did talk things out regardless of school stuff or outside stuff. Knew about his plans and told my plans to him as well. Sad to say, I won't be working with him in the main com and i'll heed his advice in continuing to stay as Sec but some devilish plans coming up la.. lol.. well it won't harm any ppl one la... So relax.. lol.. Will be helping nugget in whatever stuff he do ya.. Heh, my devilish plan hmmm is to join Pacesetter wahahaha.. But dunno will it make me dam busy onot.. lalalalalalalala~
I dunno le.... confuse again. Today re-organisation of the main com members. Everything that has happened was a big shock to us. But luckily the most important position wasn't held by someone. Whatever it is.. I'm no longer Treasurer. Now become Secretary. 2 Secretaries. Dunno the year down the road will be good or what if I consider to stay. I'm just fickle-minded la. One side tell to stay cos of Seal points n one other thing. Another ask me to get out of it becos of maybe Friendship and teamwork with the previous committee. I'ma ctually ok with the new committee members. Didn't bear any grudges with them all. Just that I don't get what is the real rationale behind the revamp and does that mean that Justin, Gabrielle and You Qing didn't do anything for BIE? I wasn't quite happy with the outcome though but it's e lecturers decisions and there's nothing we could do. Only thing now i know is YQ might be withdrawing from his position adn for myself, i really really hope justin to be in. I hope the lecturers really can make a wise decision. He is capable of handling things not saying tt cos of our relationship. Kumar he himself also wish tt to happen. Chatted with Kumar, found out lotsa stuff as well. Just hope either one will stay for the position.
I JUST CONFUSED!!! REALLY A CONFUSED TOAD RIGHT NOW.
Saturday, May 21, 2005
Today i sat in the bus and I thought of a question. I don't understand why they did that. Hmm, I will never do that, becos i treasure it alot. I'm just wondering why. It really makes me wonder wonder why they do that.. hmmm :)
Wednesday, May 18, 2005
It's a F****ing day. A shitty day. responsible? Forget it. Leave by all means. I'm just so disappointed. There's a great changes in me, ever since I'm into it. I never do that to any of my friends before except my family members. yeah i want to change. But under certain circumstances, i just cannot help it. Go ahead and so whatever u all want. I'll just stay and listen and wash my hands off any other matter.
Tuesday, May 17, 2005
Just came back from Weiting's bro, Weijie or rather, Darren's wedding. It was held at Shangri-La mind you.. haha.. Hmmm considered the first time i went to such a grand wedding ba.. When i saw the ballroom, I was FLABBERGASTED!!! So 'whoa'.. Ok i think i sua gu.. Think both parents did spend a bomb for that. Watched their marriage video, well dam funny.. haha.. Oh, weiting and her cousin, Rachel was really pretty today. Not to mention the bride. Afterall, the girl will look the prettiest on her one and only special day! Congrats to the new couple and best wishes for them~
Must really thank u for coming with me.. Hmmm, It really felt good for u to be there with me on this very day too... I dunno, but just thanks~Saturday, May 14, 2005
A day out with dear and a day so undescribable again.. :) Leaving it short and sweet cos I know it can le..
Friday, May 13, 2005
I want and Need to blog!!! Yesterday too tired le and somemore need to wake up early today for ELF training. Well, as for last day of FOC, I really didn't regret at the end by joining FOC Prog '05 and turning up for it. It made me all e more want to join it the next year. Guess I'll just find some time out next year again. It made me realise alot of things, the things that i really want and also, seeing the freshies enjoying themselves cos of ur stations and the hyper-ness in whatever they do, u really can't describe the satisfaction in it.. It's so undescribable. This year seeing more seniors graduating. They agve some emotional speech, which might not seem to be very interesting, but imagine u are them, going through FOC for 3 or 4 years, seeing so many batches of freshies enjoying themselves, knowing more ppl through this camp as well as to spur them to join us as main com, sub com and GLs.. The feeling is so 'whoa'.
Next to today's ELF event in school. Went through low elements game by this instructor from SAA, dunno how to spell his name but it sounds like Carl. Hmmm, had alot of fun within ourselves and the lecturers as well. Can u just imagine those serious serious lecturers who taught us, actually went crazy during this kind of event? They are like, some mischievous children running about at the ALP site, instructor ask them to come here but they go there.. ask them not to climb but they climb.. omg!!! Just can't imagine their other side of life in reality - playful.. lol.. But hmmm... one word, FUN!
These few days, i'm like back to my old self, so happy!!!
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
Just came back from FOC 2nd day camp. I would say, after the workshop, the programmers and I had bond rather quite well.. Got to understand a little better, and did learn quite a few things from the senior. Hmmm not to mention we did had some rather fun times, talking nonsense during our relax time and laughing our hearts out like crazy. Hmm, come to think of it, i do miss the times with them when i'm back home. and they were a good bunch of 'colleagues'. They sacrificed for me knwoing that I'm sick.. Especially thanking ah seng for being the victim when those freshies wanna pour flour on us. Hey but the freshies are nice as well.. Haha they ask me to hide one corner cos they wanna sabo ah seng.. haehae!~!
Today's a bad weather, my game got cancelled and we changed it to scavenger hunt. My 1st time playing and I need to lead a group of freshies of about 25 (sub-empire name is called Nepy). They so good, cos they thank me alot of time and i helped them to earn alot of point.. haha.. Well, something good for a programmer is that u will be 'por' by them.. Even if u not pretty, not nice, not cute, not handsome.. they also must say u cute, pretty, nice and handsome.. becos u are the game master... their game points is in ur hands! Then today, i went to talk to Joel, my attachment student who is now attending the orientation. Asked him whether his group got anybody named Joshua, haha, so lucky that Joshua is the one I'm finding (Justin's cousin), wat a coincident.. Nv waste effort. And I definitely must mention today that joel has become a bappo!!! The picture i took is so cuteeeee!~!
Think today is my first time dancing in camp ba.I mean really dance like hip hop kind. Ling Ling chereographed a new dance steps for our performance night but didn't use it until jam and hop time.. Wow, suddenly go stage i blur, forgot the steps den anyhow dance, luckily the lights off, cannot see clearly. only got disco light. hehe..
Ok, now gonna vent my anger for awhile.. Just dun understand why, some ppl like to do last minute stuff when they are not in that position anymore. Ask that person, when i'll be receiving the documents and format for everything, can happily tell me during the offical handover. Like what the hell, wait for so long and meanwhile i have to makedo with nothing to look at and shit..but this is not gonna spoil my good camp mood.. I awaiting for more goodies!!!
Monday, May 09, 2005
Was typing my blog entry halfway when the school's com just auto restart and made me run from com to com.. zzz.. Anyway had a small meeting just now with my committee members. Everyday is like so packed packed packed till school reopen. maybe i'm just lucky that i didn't get a ****.
Yesterday sent brandy and james off to Aust.. Haha, bugged them to buy milo for mi.. Why, why no one believes that the milo manufactured from Aust is much nicer and better? Well, although the packaging is a brown colour tin and just a small label saying "Australia Milo", it's still like much better than Malaysia's and Singapore's.. Serious!!! Do i sound like I'm joking? But haizz, no one believes me.. Lucky this time the people who are oging to Aust isn't dajie, if not, I wun be able to say anything cos she confirm 100% guarantee x 2 plus rechop won't buy for me one. Anyway ytd also happen to saw Han at the airport. They having some Neon gathering.. Sound so so familiar.. Last time when i was in Caddo and Phalanx, also lidat... free from anything, everyday go out have fun, play pool, sing ktv and won 4d.. But I think I need to get out of this life.. Need to grow up.. True, need to have some fun times but I dun think I must do that everday since like money is so hard to earn.
Hmmm, just wondering why people tend to say excuses just because they didn't want to go and attend something. Well, not say I never do that.. But for personal stuff or maybe fren fren sake, why can't we just tell each other? Then in e end found out that those excuses are not valid and they don't even happen. Isn't it worse? Just tell straight lor.. Not as if someone will point a gun aat u and force u to go do something. Just decline it in a reasonable way.. Just SAY!!! It won't hurt. The most hurting part will be that the person u are telling actually found out the truth.. zzz...
Gonna go for orientation soon at 5+.. Actually still long. and I'm so sick sick sick.. Still coughing and having some slight flu.. arghh!!!
Sunday, May 08, 2005
Happy Mother's Day to my mum, my frens' mum, and all mums out there in the world!!! haha, this is actually the first year, i know when this day falls exactly. Cos I blur blur gave my mum her 'present' last week thinking that it was last sunday..
Oh no, i'm down with a flu and cough.. arghhh... is it good or bad? Didn't go to the last day of the workshop cos i was too tired and sick sick to wake up and go. Dunno tomorrow can turn up for my station onot.. Later going to the airport to send Xiaodidi and Brandy off to Australia. Hope they gonna have real fun over there, spending dunno how many nights threesome-ly.. lol.. Then ask them to buy australia milo for mi, they all dun want.. Ask me go msia and buy.. zzz... The milo there is really much nicer and more 'xiang' eh, nice smelling.. haha.. serious no bluff u ppl.. But i think they wun be seeing this post.. So maybe I'll bug them later.
And i'm going to study for advanced theory soon.. Car license, there I come!!!
Friday, May 06, 2005
Wow, the black day yesterday.. Almost all the TB030 peeps who turn up for the outing wore black.. except for 2 la.. which is James and Nadia.. extra leh~ Had our wonderful dinner at Piazza. Well a good restaurant i would say.. The food oso not bad..
Then we chill around at starbucks.. Our crapz chat again.. I seriously think brandon, peter, xiaodidi and ac doesn't treat me as a ger.. Haha, they say so much sia.. Machiam i am a guy lidat.. But fun yea? Then ac cold until he talk halfway, he arm auto shake (shiver) lol.. so funny!!! Oh, then nearly sold my xbox to xiaodidi, but things didn't turn out tt well.. cos final fantasy 13 has yet to confirm it's console system. so well, xiaodidi hope and pray tt it turns out to be ps2 or xbox2 ba.. lol..
It was a fun day..
Everything seems so fine but there are bound to be some ups and down.
It isn't a game i like to play
but there are some things that are not meant to be said
feel so sorry and guilty
for the things i've done and said
hope u understand the inner me
and let the past go away
whatever u will be doing
be it present and future
just remember
behind u i'll always stand
loving u no matter what
for u are one that's worth my love.
Dear, understand what u are going thru, but i just hope we'll face everything together. Do what u want and settle ur stuff 1st. Don't really want to let all those bother u. I realise what is heartpain.
Hmmm, true frens are really true frens. They will turn up and find u when u are in trouble. I'm so glad i've found u ting, u are my best sister forever. Never regretted knowing u. Not only i want this kind of time to be with u, but oso the fun times we have. Ting, frens and sista forever~
Monday, May 02, 2005
Just don't feel like doing anything, just want to sit in a corner and not think of anything. So terrible, feeling more terrible than anything. Just don't feel like seeing them.. I'm still in the enjoy life mood i guess. I don't mind whether ppl around me are poor or rich, who and what they are. As long I'm happy and they are happy, free from everything. I also happy. So what if i do something good and well, but others around are not? It won't make any difference. I feel so shit now, cannot do anything.
I'm still closed. My believes is much too strong for anything. I'm trying hard to open to get the idea through, but it's hard. It's not i don't find it realistic, i'm not them, i just wan wat i want and do wat i like. To achieve wat i like too.. the rest are secondary. It makes my heart feel so hurt so pain when i know someone is feeling terrible. And it's not their fault.
Freedom~
